F the school

gawd! so, we're having this camp that I don't even WANT to attend. I'm freaking tired of camps, I'm going to get my tummy ache and my face will be red ( no more pinkish ) and some of my hair will fall (?) and I'll be so URGHHHH I HATE CAMPS

the school threatened me that if I don't join the camp, they will LOWER my score! What does that fcking camp have to do with scores?? Our seniors ( the reason why the camp is held ) doesn't even like us! They're freaking happy they're moving out, because WHO LIKES A SCHOOL LIKE SHIT!?

heart-throbs!

Ed westwick <3 awww so damn hawwwwtttt! Look at him :DDD AHDORABBLLEEE! >

Gossip Girl :D

OMG! I'm getting Serena's wallpaper! The one she uses in her bed? the polkadot thingy? I'm getting that, very same thing! 2 of them, both! ahlalalala~ freaking happy!

P.S.: Don't you think Chuck&Blair, Nate&Serena make perfect couples? I'm totally in love with Ed westwick! I love Chace too, but he's not that hot, just cute. And have been adoring Leighton the whole year :D

Dan with Vanessa, the unwanted couple. And Jenny ( I love her too ) make a cute couple with Eric.

anoter P.S.:  I know who gossip girl is (:

here she goes to summer school

M's going to summer-school. We barely use summer-school in my lame country down here in asia (Indonesia), well, maybe never?

while all the class batches are freaking busy of all the shits, working f**ing hard to pass the grade, she lingered on her bed, kissing the her boyfriends' asses. Then, while all the bitches are lingering in the beach, maybe getting a tan? (Oops! I hate tan :D), she stays alone at school, staring to one-whole-school-year papers and presentations to do.

Well, M, this is what you get for taking it all easy, surprised? 

P.S.: I STILL LOVE YOU MUCHO, M!

my hopefully-i-get- it future room

Massies Room! by ♥♔♥ßεℓℓα♥Swαn♥♔♥...∂αzzℓεɗಌ on Polyvore.com

Current State of Union

IN

Serena's bedroom <3

Miley's bed ( not the room )

Having fun!

OUT

EXAMINATION!

Being so stressed about it

my ALL-SHE-THINKS-ABOUT-IS-HERSELF-AND-FASHION-BUT-STILL-GET-THINGS sister! 

my URGH-SO-NOT-CARING boyfriendddd!!!!!!!!!!

I-DONT-KNOW-WHAT-TO-NAME-THIS

This is really like my diary. no one knows about this but N ( so I can't put every single thing here ) and no one in the house can read this. Though I know no one will read this, I can never show my feelings about G. It's so cliche for girls to say their boyfriend doesn't care blah-blah-blah. My boyfriend often yell at me, and hang up the phone while I'm crying so loud because of him. He changed. Yea, it's so cliche for girls to say that about their boys. But he did changed. He don't even cry if I cry or not, yea he yelled at me before, but that was like once/ 2 months, but it's almost like everyday now. I don't look like a sad little girl who cries everyday in phone, then can't go to sleep because of it, I don't seem like that cuz I write this way, but I am. I don't know how to tell my feelings, a lot of times I tried to put what I feel about G here but I can never wrote a thing. All I can do is write like the post below. Not a lot can feel like I do about G, I know that. I'm not exaggerating it. A lot of times I really want to break up but I really-really can't. I was on the phone with him, and when I said that sometimes I feel like breaking up, he yelled at me. Sometimes I don't even want to meet him so I can never feel this way, so I'll never be stuck with the love I have to him.

N said thirteen-year-olds can't love. But I know I'm in a deep love, and can't get out. Though how rude he is to me, I was always loyal, while he wasn't that loyal. My feeling is too mixed up. I love him, I hate him, I really miss him, I want him to change, blah-blah-blah. I just don't know what I'm really feeling. Sometimes I hope he reads this, but I know then he'll be mad.

You know, he always seem kind in front of my friends, barely yells, we fought a lot, and it always seems like it was my fault, well part of it was my fault, but how could I be mad if he doesn't make mistakes? Everyone said it's all my fault, and I'm really f-cking tired of that and all the angel face he made in front of my friend. Can't they ever realize that he was the one who have tons of close-friends that's girls? Can't they ever realize how I'm really feeling when he broke promises! Yea, I don't allow him to contact with some girls. Everyone said I was wrong blah-blah-blah. But can't he give up one lame girl for his girl-friend? I mean it's MY business not yours! Everyone looked from his side, how about my side? Sometimes they're just so biased. Well, it's not really like that no more now though.

BUT G, CAN'T YOU EVER LOOK AT ME AND UNDERSTAND WHAT I FEEL!?

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I hate him . .